23 July 2015

From Me To You


I just wanted to give you guys a little heads up on what is going on. I'm leaving my current job, and tomorrow is my last day, so I won't be posting for a while. I usually use my work computer and work time to write and edit, so until I find my laptop and figure life out, I won't be posting.

I'm hoping this won't last more than a couple of weeks- and I might even surprise you all with a random post here and there {via my iPhone}. I'm going to try and use twitter more {follow me here -> @vodkatori } so I can hopefully keep you guys in the loop. 

But I love you all and I thank you for reading and following along with my crazy life. Don't forget about me!

xo Tori w

22 July 2015

Your Ass Is Mine

“But, you’re not dating him?” Sophia asked.

Jenn had been hooking up with Danny since that weekend at the cottage. I was really happy that she was letting loose, but something about it just didn’t seem right.


“So, you’re just banging him.” I stated matter of factly.

“Why do you always have to make things so vulgar?” Jenn snapped back.

“It’s a valid question.” Sophia defended me.

Jenn sighed in frustration before shooting me a dirty look. “Yes, we are just hooking up.”

“Are you sure that’s what you want?”

“First you guys hound me because I’m a prude and I won’t sleep with anyone. Now you guys are on me for sleeping with someone… what the hell? Can I live my own life for once?”

“Easy with the attitude, Jennifer. You know we only tease you because we love you. But you just met this guy like not even two weeks ago, and you’ve been with him literally every night since. If it’s casual than keep it casual. DO NOT fall for him!”

Jenn had a habit of doing that. She’ll sleep with a guy once and fall in love. It’s not her fault though. She has such a big heart and is truly a hopeless romantic. She avoids casual sexual relationships because of this, which is why both me and Sophia find this arrangement strange. Now don’t get me wrong- Danny is a sweetheart too {he is Matt’s brother after all}. But, he’s a total ladies man and I know for a fact he is not ready to settle down.

“I will not fall for him. He’s sexy and he’s amazing in bed. Right now, that’s all I’m interested in.”



“Yea… we’re happy if you are.” I forced a fake smile and changed the subject.

On my way home, I sent Matt a quick text telling him that I wanted to talk to Danny, and asked him to arrange dinner plans for Sunday night. I know I shouldn’t get in the middle of my friend’s business, but I just had to make sure they were both on the same page.

“Dinner and a movie ok?”

“Yea, that’s perfect!” 

Sunday came and went, and before I knew it, it was time for dinner. We met Danny at a newish Thai place near Matt’s condo {I hate Thai food, btw}, and I have to say I felt like a very lucky lady walking in with these two godly men. I seriously need to thank their parents for creating such beautiful humans. Anyways, we were seated near the back which gave me the perfect amount of privacy to harass Danny.

“So, I hear you and Jenn have been spending lots of time together.”

“We have.”

“And where do you see this going?”

I know I was acting like an unreasonable parent, but I love Jenn way too much. Danny shifted uncomfortably in his seat and Matt shot me a disapproving look, but whatever. “Umm, we’re just having fun?”

“Danny look, I’m not judging what you guys have going on. I just want to make sure you are both on the same page and that you don’t hurt my best friend. Because I will hurt you if you do.” I emphasized that last part with my fork.

“Tori, I promise I won’t hurt her. Both Jenn and I agree on the arrangement we have. We have talked about it numerous times, and she knows that I won’t manipulate her. She told me about the last guy, and I would never do that to her. Neither one of us is ready for a relationship right now. She’s an amazing girl though. So I’m happy I got her before anyone else did.” When he spoke about Jenn, it was full of passion, and it made me wonder if I was worried about the wrong person falling in love.

“So are you saying that maybe one day you’ll want to make things official?”

“Maybe, who knows? But that won’t be for a long time.”

 I was silent for a really long time, and both Matt and Danny were trying to gauge my reaction. “Okay.” Was all I said before I picked up my fork and continued to eat. I only ordered rice though because- Thai food.

“That’s it? Okay?” Matt asked.

“Yea. I can tell he’s being sincere and I trust him.” I turned to Danny and added, “But if you hurt her- your ass is mine.”

Both Matt and Danny laughed at my tough girl act. The rest of dinner went smoothly, and I have to admit that I really like Danny. He reminds me a lot of Matt and my brother Daniel, so how could I not right? When we finished dinner, we walked across the street to the movie theatre. The men couldn’t decide on what movie to watch, so I secretly went and bought us all tickets for Magic Mike XXL. I had already seen it with the girls, so I knew exactly what a treat they were in for. Matt was kinda pissed at me, and Danny just shook his head and mumbled something but I batted my eyelashes and they knew they had no choice.

They were obviously the only two men in the theater, and I have to say- they were extremely into it. Matt now wants to learn all of the choreography {to impress me- duh!} and Danny downloaded the soundtrack as soon as we walked out of the theater. It is a pretty sweet soundtrack though.

Jenn knew that I was spending the night with Danny, and she had sent me a text while we were in the movie asking how the night went. I didn’t reply until I was in the car ready to head home.

“Dinner went great. Danny is such a sweetheart.”

“Does that mean you’re done harassing Danny and me?”

“For now… PS Just took them to see Magic Mike. You can thank me later. ;)”

“LOL. Thanks Tor, for everything. <3”

20 July 2015

He's Worth It

 “So.. I told Matt that I loved him.”

“What? When? How? Was it romantical?” Sophia was clapping her hands and jumping up and down, while Jenn just smiled at me and laughed at Sophia’s enthusiasm.

“You guys don’t think it was too soon?” I asked.

“Are you kidding me?” Jenn said. “We knew from the first time we met him.” Sophia nodded in agreement.

“Why the hell did you not say anything to me?”

“You had to figure it out for yourself.” Sophia added. “So, how did it happen?”

I told them about what happened when Matt drunkenly told me he was in love with me, and how I didn’t respond. Then about how he enforced it the night before- after dealing with my family. Then about how Daniel and I had a heart to heart and it made me open my eyes. {I couldn’t help but notice Jenn’s mood change when I mentioned my brother- so I have to remember to talk to her about that.}

“That’s so stupid!” Sophia yelled. “You told him over the phone?!”

“I didn’t want to wait.”

“You need to do something for him to make up for that.”

That conversation really had me thinking, and I decided to do something special for Matt. He really does deserve it. He was working late Friday night, so I decided to surprise a nice romantic dinner at his place. I know, not original, but I couldn’t think of anything else- I lack romantic creativity. I asked Matt if I could go over to watch a movie, so he left a key for me at the concierge, and told me to just hang out in his condo until he got home.

I took Friday off work, and spent the whole day shopping. My first stop was Victoria's Secret, where I picked up a sexy little number and matching thigh highs. If you know me, you know that I absolutely hate lingerie, and I think it’s completely pointless but what can I say, he’s worth it. I then made my way to the grocery store and picked up all of the ingredients I needed for dinner.

By the time I got to Matt’s condo, it was almost 6pm. I had just under two hours to make sure this night was perfect. I started cooking dinner right away- stuffed pasta in a vodka sauce, grilled veal chops with roasted peppers and potatoes and a chocolate peanut butter cheesecake. {Okay, so that cheesecake was more for me than him.} I set the table, lit all of the candles that Matt had left over from the last time a surprise happened in this condo, and got dressed {undressed?}.

I was just walking out of the bedroom when I heard Matt at the door.

“Tor, why did you shut off all of the- wow.” Matt turned to face the hallway, and caught his words when he saw me.

“Hi.” I said, biting my lip. All of a sudden, I got super shy. This was the first time I’d seen Matt since the whole love thing happened and it was way more overwhelming than I imagined.

“Hi.” Matt said back, just as quietly as I did. He moved towards me and pulled me in for a soft kiss. I took his hand in mine, and led him toward the dining / kitchen area, which was lit only by the light of the candles that were scattered around the room. Matt looked around and then looked at me. “Tor, what is all of this?”

“Dinner.” Was all I could get out. This went way better in my head.

Matt laughed at my obvious nervousness “Yes, I can see that.”

“I wanted to do something for you. You deserve so much more than this, but I wanted to show you just how much you mean to me. I love you.” The last three words were barely out of my mouth before Matthew ‘s mouth was on mine.

I don't know what came over him, but instead of answering he picked me up and carried me to his bed, kissing me passionately along the way.  He laid me on my back while his hands travelled down my body and cupped my breasts. He reached behind me to unclasp the lingerie I was in and that’s when we realized it was stuck. Matt tugged at it for a while before he got up and went to the bathroom. I stood up just as he was walking back out, scissors in hand. He cut down the front delicately, catching my breasts as they popped out.

“I’ll buy you a new one.” He said in a husky voice.

“Matthew, get this off of me right now.”

He growled deep in his gut and ripped it off of me. Before I knew it he had my legs around his half naked body, my back against the wall as I felt him sliding two fingers into me.  My arms wrapped tightly around him as he them moved faster.  I felt my orgasm building just as he pulled his fingers out and threw me on the bed. There was this primal side to Matt that drove me crazy.  I moaned loudly as he finally entered me and cried out with every thrust. I held on to him tightly, my nails digging into his back as my orgasm took over me.

We didn’t move for a really long time. I curled into Matt as he traced kisses up and down my neck and shoulder. “I love you, too.” He finally said.

I must have dozed off, because the next thing I knew, I was waking up to the sound of someone moaning. I almost died when I realized it was me. Matt was alternating between kisses on my inner thighs, and sweet soft strokes of his tongue. When he saw I was awake, he pushed a finger inside of me, and then a second, while continuing to suck on my already sensitive clit. I came almost immediately. My back arched and I screamed things that a good Catholic school girl like myself should never say. Matt climbed up on the bed, trailing kisses up my body.

We went for two more slow passionate rounds before we finally fell asleep in each other’s arms. I could get used to this love thing.

15 July 2015

Matthew vs.Frank and Carmela

Sooooo… Matt met my parents last night. It was totally by accident, and it actually wasn’t horrible. Oh, and we love each other now- so I guess you could say things are gettin' pretty serious. {bonus points for anyone that guesses that movie reference}

My parents are crazy protective over me- I am the baby after all {and I know they secretly love me more than Daniel}. So, anytime I brought a boy home, they always got the third degree. I think that’s why I was so scared to bring Matt home. I really like Matt, in case you guys haven’t noticed, and I did not want the parentals to scare him away.

Yesterday was such a draining day at work, and I went home with a massive headache. Matthew and I had plans to have a quick dinner and then go to a movie, and he was coming to pick me up at 7. Well, little Miss Tori was too sleepy and I ended up passing out on the couch while I was waiting for him. The next thing I knew, I was being shaken awake by my brother- who informed me that Matt was sitting in the kitchen talking to my parents.

I had to replay this sentence in my head a few times before it clicked. Matthew was alone with my parents. I peeled my ass off of the couch, and walked toward the kitchen and I was surprised by what I heard- laughter. That never happens. Like ever. My boyfriends + my parents usually equals major tension. I slowly walked around the corner and caught my mom’s glance.

“Oh, look who finally decided to join us.”

“Why didn’t you guys wake me up?”

I mouthed an apology to Matt and walked towards the fridge to get some water- all of a sudden my throat was super dry. Matt winked at me, but did not even get up to give me a hug or a kiss- which he is totally going to hear about later.

“Victoria, why would you keep such a lovely young man away from us?” She asked.  


“Oh stop it, he’s such a gentleman.” She cooed. Matt totally had my mother under some weird spell- she never talked like this.

“Victoria, come and sit.” My father is the only one who still calls me Victoria. So of course I sat beside my dad {daddy’s girl} and across from Matt.

My brother eventually joined us, and the night flew by. I helped my mom make some dinner and my dad busted out the good old Italian vino. If there’s one type of alcohol I cannot drink- it’s his home made wine. That shit is STRONGGGGG. Matt obviously didn’t say no, and I’m pretty sure I saw a tear drip from his eye as he was forcing it down. I was almost 10pm when Matt decided that it was time to go home.

“Thank you so much for dinner Mrs. Commisso.” He gave my mom a kiss on the cheek and she blushed. She’s too much sometimes.

“Please, call me Carmela.”

Matt turned to my dad next. “And thank you Mr. Commisso.”


“Thank you, Frank.” Matt said shaking his hand. He made plans with my brother to go watch a Blue Jay’s game, and I walked him to his car.

“Why didn’t you guys wake me up?” I asked again.

“You looked so peaceful.” Matt said, pulling me in to him. “I only came to the door because I was worried. I know you probably didn’t want me to meet your family so soon but-“ I put my mouth on his to shut him up. Usually it’s the other way around since I’m the chatterbox in the relationship, but I could tell how nervous he was.

“Thank you.” I finally said.

“For what?”

“For being you. They loved you.”

“Well, who doesn’t?” Yup, cocky Matt was back. I slapped his arm and he pulled me in for another kiss. He got into the car and started it, rolling down his window so that I could get one more kiss in. As he was backing out of my driveway, I started to walk towards the house when I heard Matt call my name.



“I meant what I said the other night.” And with that he drove off.

I stood in my driveway for a solid ten minutes before I finally realized what he was talking about. He told me he was in love with me, and I never answered him. I assumed they were drunk words, but then again drunk words are sober thoughts, right?

When I walked inside the three amigos I call my family were all standing in the hallway waiting for me. “Tori- he is absolutely perfect! Why didn’t you bring him home sooner?” My mom gushed.

“Um, we just started dating like 2 months ago..”

“Who cares? Have you seen the way he looks at you? His whole face lit up when you walked into the room. Even though you look like you got hit by a truck. Would it have killed you to run a brush through that hair?”

“Thanks, mother.”

“Tor, seriously, I have never seen anyone as into you as he is.” Daniel added. “I like him. I approve.”

I looked at my dad and he just gave me the nod. He and my mom went to clean up in the kitchen and I was still standing in the hallway.

“Tor, what’s wrong?”

“Can we go talk- upstairs?”

Daniel followed me to my room and shut the door behind him.

“He told me he’s in love with me.”


“And, I didn’t answer him.”


“Is that all you can say?”

“Tor, what are you asking me?”

“Well, as a guy, if you told a girl you were in love with her and she didn’t say anything back..”

“I wouldn’t be upset. I would rather she didn’t say anything than say something she didn’t mean.” I stared at him for a while before he continued. “Tor, you might not understand your feelings right now, but me and the two crazies down there know.”

“Know what?”

“You love him, and he loves you. Don’t make it more complicated than it is.”


“But nothing Tor. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been together, or who says what first. When you know, you know. Matt knows, and you know. Stop being so scared of letting people in.”

“You need to leave. Now.”


“I need to make a phone call.”

Daniel smiled and nodded before walking out. I dialed Matt’s number and he answered on the second ring.

“I love you.” I blurted out. Matt was silent for way too long and I had a mild anxiety attack. What if that’s not what he meant? What if he didn’t feel the same way? What if I just made a complete fool out of myself? “Matt?”

“Uh, yea, I’m here. You totally caught me off guard, I was just processing.”

“I didn’t want to tell you on the phone but I had to tell you tonight. I had to tell you..”



“You have no idea how long I have waited to hear you say that. I love you too.”


13 July 2015

The Breakup

Chloe and me broke up. I haven't written about Chloe in a long time, and that's mostly because I haven't seen her. It's been a month since I walked out on her at dinner, and I know I might be being dramatic- but I'm still mad at her. 

Let me give you some background on Chloe. When she was not even a year old- her father left. He left her and her mother without even so much as a word to where he was going, if he was coming back or even why he left. Needless to say, this caused a whole bunch of "bad behavior" on Chloe's part pretty much all throughout high school. It’s been almost 26 years now, and he has not even tried to contact her once.

Sophia and Chloe were always the closest. Their mother's were friends since they were in high school, so Sophia and Chloe pretty much grew up together. I met Chloe through Sophia {in sixth grade}, and we have been inseparable ever since. Jenn and Chloe haven’t ever been very close, their personalities just don’t mesh well.

When we finished high school, we all went on to college / university, but Chloe went straight to work at a retail store. She didn’t even need to work. Her mother made sure she was well taken care of, and whatever Chloe wanted, she got. To this day, Chloe is working in the same store, and has not made any attempt to get a full time job.

Things went sour between Sophia and Chloe shortly after Sophia started dating Paul. Chloe was dating some low life druggie at the time, and they were constantly going on double dates and even started planning their double wedding. Well, Jason {the druggie}, and Chloe broke up about 14 times that year before they finally called it quits. Their relationship was so toxic, and everyone was so happy that it was finally over. Everyone except Chloe. I know for a fact that Chloe resents the fact that Sophia’s relationship lasted and hers didn’t. 

Chloe’s bad attitude has only gotten worse over the years. She has always been a very difficult person to get along with, but lately it’s becoming annoying. People refuse to go out with us if they know she’s going to be there, and even avoid talking to us when she’s around. But for some reason, we’ve always catered to her needs, and because of her attitude and temper- have not mentioned any of this to her in hopes of salvaging the friendship. No one had ever stood up to her either- until I walked out on her at dinner. 

Chloe called me Friday night. She hasn’t made any attempt to contact me in the last month, so I assumed something was wrong.  

“Can we go watch Magic Mike tomorrow? Sophia and Jenn can come too.” She asked me. 

“Um, okay. What time were you thinking?” I was slightly shocked, but I figured we would have a chance to talk and hash things out. 

“Well it’s playing at 7:10 or 9:50, so you decide.” 

“Oh, so I’m coming down there I guess?” 

“What the hell Tori? All of a sudden you don’t want to ever come down here.” She snapped. 

“You have never once made an effort to meet us anywhere close by, or even in the middle. Ever. Why do we always have to come down there? You don’t pay my gas.” 

“Maybe because I don’t drive! How am I supposed to get places Tori?” Her voice was dripping with attitude and I finally had enough.

“Chloe, you have had 10 whole years to get your driver’s license and you haven’t. Since you continue to be lazy, why don’t you get on a bus, or take a taxi hell- call and Uber for all I care. Be an adult for once, and figure your shit out. Until you understand that you’re being selfish and extremely rude- I’m not coming down there.” 

“How am I being rude? I just called YOU! And now you’re yelling at me.”

“You know what- call Sophia or Jenn and see if they’re willing to be your chauffer- that’s not me anymore.” I hung up after that. I didn’t want to hear anymore of her excuses dripped in attitude. 

Both Sophia and Jenn came over Friday night and we talked about what had happened. I can tell Sophia feels torn. Chloe is going to be one of her bridesmaids, and she is really close with her family- but her behavior is out of control. Paul doesn't even want her in the bridal party anymore. Jenn on the other hand, thinks that we've given her enough chances and she needs to learn from her mistakes. I just feel like I'm too young to have to deal with a 26 year old child, you know?

I only slightly regret what I said to Chloe. Do you guys think I’m being too dramatic? Am I wrong to think the way that I do? 


10 July 2015

Canada Day:Part Two

"Well that didn't take long."

"Oh my god, Tori! Shut the door! Oh my god!" Jenn was scrambling like a chicken without a head to find a sheet to cover herself with. Danny on the other hand looked way too impressed with himself in that moment. Turns out they got a little crazy and knocked over a side table with a lamp on it, hence the bang and glass shattering.

The rest of the night was really chill. Jenn pretty much avoided everyone and went to bed early. Evan and Danny went in to the basement to play video games {adult children}, which gave me and Matt some much needed alone time.

"Babe. I'm so happy you and Evan are cool. You're like my two favorite people." Matt slurred. We were all kind of buzzed, but Matt was well on his way to drunk town.

"Mhmm, me too." I was sitting on the floor trying to find my toiletry bag, which is never where I think I put it...

"Tor what’s wrong?" Matt sat up in the bed and gave me the look. You know that look that your dad gives you when he knows you're lying about where you really were all night? Ya, that look.

"Nothing." I said happily. I stood up and gave him a quick peck on the lips. "I'm just gonna shower real quick."

I turned the water on, and let it heat up. I'm one of those people that takes steaming hot showers- it's so calming. Anyways, I sat on the counter waiting for the water to heat up, and I couldn't stop my brain from wandering.. Why was Evan trying to make Carmen jealous? What happened between her and Matt? But at the same time, Matt's words were repeating in my head. "Please stop doubting me." Ugh, this relationship shit is hard. I shook my head- as if that would make the thoughts disappear, and stood under the burning hot water for what felt like forever. {Another thing I love about this cottage- the water never gets cold. Hot showers all day erryday!}

I felt him before I saw him. Matt has a presence. When he walks into a room, you feel that he’s there before you see him- not that you could miss his big ass body. He pulled me into him and lifted my body and pinned me to the wall forcing me to make eye contact.

“Matt..” I started to protest but he silenced me by putting his mouth on mine. I tried to push him away but he just kissed me deeper and harder. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I didn’t like where this was going, but I was just way too consumed in my own thoughts. “Matt, stop!” I yelled this time and he snapped out of his trance. The water was beating on his back while he still had me pressed up against the wall. He stared at me intensely, as if he was trying to read me. Matt pushed my hair from my face and kissed me softer. As he started to put me down, my already sensitive nipples brushed against his chest and all kinds of things started happening to my body. I had to have him, now. I slid all the way down until I was on my knees and had him in my mouth. He groaned and pulled my hair back, only intensifying my need for him.

“Tor, I’m not coming unless I’m inside you.” Matt growled, like an actual beast would. {I like to refer to us as Beauty and the Beast, because how cute right?} He picked me up and pinned me between his body and the wall, entering me in one swift motion. I cried out his name and wrapped my legs around his body as he moved in and out of me. It wasn’t long before we were both shaking with pleasure.

Matt grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my body before shutting off the water, and carrying me to bed. We went for another two rounds of slower, softer and way more passionate sex before either one of us grew tired.

I was drifting off into sleep when I felt Matt’s lips on my closed eyelids. For a big man, he gives the sweetest and softest kisses. He pulled me into him and whispered in my ear. “I’m so in love with you, Tor.” I have no idea where that came from, or why he said it, but he did. I obviously suck at feelings, so I just pushed my booty into him and pulled his arms tighter around me.

The next morning we all woke up to banging on the door. Sophia and Paul had arrived, way too early. They’re a supper annoying couple sometimes. We ended up spending the whole day on the boat, bonding and tanning. Jenn was starting to open up again which was good. She’s way too tightly wound, and needs a little help loosening up. I guess Sophia was a welcome distraction. Plus there was wine, so…

We all left Sunday morning for our three hour drive back in to the city. Danny offered to drive Jenn home, and to my surprise she actually accepted. I winked at her and she just laughed and slapped my arm, so I guess that’s a good sign? Evan tried to hug me goodbye, but I kind of half hugged him because I’m still not sure about him. None of the guys seemed to like Paul too much, which is normal. He comes across as a total douche, but deep down he is a really nice guy.  

Sunday night, before Matt brought me home, we went for a walk in a park beside my house. This park also happens to be the breeding ground for mosquitoes. Long story short, I got eaten alive and Matt spent his Sunday night rubbing tea tree oil all over my swollen and itchy ass. And I know what you’re all thinking… how romantic, right? ;) 

08 July 2015

Canada Day: Part One

Matt text me saying that he would be finished work at 1, and would be at my house by 2. I was both excited and super nervous for this weekend away. Matt’s friends and my friends were all coming up with us, and it would be the first time I was meeting his friends, and the first time our friends were meeting each other. Matt had already met my friends, so he was at an advantage.

What if they didn't like me? What if they didn't like each other? What if I didn't like them? I couldn't stop my mind from working overtime, but I promised myself that this weekend would not define me and Matt's relationship, no matter what the outcome was. 

When we pulled up to the cottage, there were already two cars in the driveway. Matt informed me that they belonged to his brother Daniel {who liked to be called Danny}, and of course, Evan. I was more than nervous to meet Evan because of the whole Carmen situation, but I put on my fake smile and followed Matt up to the house. We walked into the house, and I didn’t even have time to put my bags down, before I was picked up and squeezed by two of the biggest men I have ever seen in my life. 

Both Danny and Evan were just as tall as Matthew {6'5"} and just as huge. I swear these giants just all find each other and become bffs. After putting me down they finally introduced themselves. Danny was extremely good looking. He had a softer face than Matt, less angular and more rounded features, with the same piercing green eyes. Evan on the other hand was the best looking ginger I've ever seen. I immediately saw the resemblance between him and Carmen, but I quickly pushed her out of my mind. 

"You must be Victoria." Danny said. "We have heard SOOOO much about you." He said dramatically. He looked at Evan and then at Matt, who turned beat read, and they all started laughing. 

"Uh, yea, that’s me." I answered, still completely overwhelmed by the jolly green giants in front of me. 

"Ya, and I'm Jenn,- just in case anyone cares!" I heard Jenn pipe up. I completely forgot she was standing behind me. 

Matt started to laugh, and quickly introduced Jenn. "Guys this is Tori's friend Jennifer. Heir other friend Sophia and her fiancĂ© are coming up tomorrow morning too." 

Danny wasted no time in trying to impress Jenn. He grabbed her bags, linked arms with her and showed her around the house while we all settled into our own bedrooms. Matt wanted to take a quick shower since he had been working all day, so I decided to grab a glass of wine and sit on the back deck. I was leaning on the railing looking out at the sunset when Evan walked outside and asked if he could join me. 

"I can tell you're nervous around me, and please don't be." He said sheepishly. I don't know why, but I find it completely adorable when big burly men get all quiet and shy. I looked down at my glass, not sure what to say, but he continued. "I heard what Carmen did to you, and I'm apologizing on her behalf and I'm sorry too. I had no idea that she was going to attack you like that. That was not my intention at all. I only showed her that picture to make her jealous." 

"Evan, I'm not mad at you at all. Do I think she's a bitch? Yeah. But I won't ever hold that against you. You seem like a sweet guy, and any guy that has enough balls to come out here and apologize for someone else's behavior is alright in my books." 

He smiled shyly. “Trust me; you aren’t the only one around here that thinks of her that way. I love her because she’s my sister, but that woman is a huge pain in my ass. I’m so happy she moved out of the country.”

I gave him a weak smile before asking, “Why would she be jealous of me?”

“Tori, have you seen the way Matt looks at you? That look would make any woman jealous.” My mind drifted and I remembered the way Matt’s eyes trail over my body and started blushing. I got lost in my thoughts when I heard Evan speak again. "So, are we good?" He asked.

"Yes, of course!" I said, snapping back to reality.

Evan turned and hugged me again. "I really am happy that Matt found you. I haven't seen him this happy in a really long time."

Matt walked out just as we pulled apart, and gave us both questioning looks. Both me and Evan started laughing at his obvious confusion. We assured him that all was good and that we were well on our way to becoming “besties” as Evan put it.

It was getting late and we were all starving, so I went inside to find Jenn while the guys started the barbeque. I checked in all of the bedrooms, the kitchen, the game room in the basement and this chick was nowhere to be found! I almost started to panic, but then realized that Danny was missing as well.

For a quick second I thought maybe they were hooking up somewhere, but then I remembered this is Jenn we’re talking about. I stopped searching for the two of them until I heard a huge bang and glass breaking. I had no idea that there was another room on the opposite side of the house, so being inspector Tori, I had to check out what was happening in there. {sidenote: I'm totally that girl that walks towards the killer in a horror movie}

By the time I had my hand on the door knob, Matt and Evan were right behind me. They had heard the noise too, and came it to make sure I was alright. So cute right? Anyways, I opened the door and was literally speechless. There they were. Jenn and Danny. Danny and Jenn. A tangled, naked mess. 

06 July 2015

If It Feels Good...

Canada Day was on a Wednesday this year, which seemed to be super confusing for the construction world. Basically all of our job sites decided to take different days off, some Wednesday, some Friday and some were just working straight through. I was given a choice on what day I wanted off, so I decided to take Friday off, and enjoy a nice long weekend. Matt had to work both days, which sucked, but he promised he would leave early on Friday so that we could go up to the cottage again.

Friday morning I woke up unusually early, so I grabbed a quick breakfast with Jenn. She's a teacher, so she gets summer vacation- which I am super jealous of! We met at a cute breakfast spot that specializes in their fresh fruit dishes, and it did not disappoint. After breakfast we decided to get some shopping in. She was coming up to the cottage with Matt and me. Sophia was meeting us there Saturday morning, with her fiance Paul. Matt's brother was also going to be there with Evan, so I assured Jenn she wouldn't be the fifth wheel!

On our drive to the mall, I asked Jenn if she had talked to any of the guys that she met on her birthday. She had been so excited that night, and I wanted to see if that was just drunk Jenn talking.

“Actually, this guy Mark is taking me out next weekend.” She replied. I couldn’t exactly read her expression so I pressed on.

“And are you happy with that?”

“Tor, I wouldn’t have said yes if I wasn’t.” She said with way more attitude than necessary.

“Okay, so then what’s the problem? You’re not exactly jumping for joy.”  

“There’s no problem, it’s just.. I don’t know. There’s so much pressure when dating someone at our age. You’re basically gonna marry this person or break up, you know? Plus I don’t really remember what he looks like, what if I think he’s gross?!”

Jenn was too cute sometimes. But she did have a point. She has two older sisters that are both married, and I know she feels the pressure from her parents to find a husband and settle down. “Well, if he’s gross just put up with the date and then tell him you’re not interested. Don’t just walk out on him- that’s rude.” I started. “And, the whole marriage thing is so far from your mind. Don’t even let that influence you.”

“Why is it so easy for you Tor. You have no cares in the world. I know for a fact you are not even considering marrying Matt, and that doesn’t bug you at all! Why can’t I be like that?”

“Jenn, do you want to be married right now?”

“No. Not even a little bit.”

“Okay, there’s your answer. You don’t want it, so don’t look for it. I won’t date anyone that isn’t on the same page as me, and you shouldn’t either. But, I wouldn’t count out this Mark guy before you’ve even gone out! He could be the non-marrying type you’re looking for! And if all else fails, just bang him until you find the one…”

Jenn gasped in shock, and through laughter she started reprimanding me. “TORI! Sex is not always the answer you know!”

“Whatever.” I said dismissively. My friends never had the same opinions on sex as I did. Both Sophia and Jenn are all “sex is for someone you love…” I’m more of the “if it feels good... do it” kind of girl. We laughed it off as we continued shopping. The one thing that I love about my friends is that even though we have different views on most things, we would never judge each other. 

"Seriously Tori. it might have worked for you and Matt, but I just can't be like that." 

"I know babe. But stop stressing and just go with the flow." I said with a big smile. Jenn really was such a great girl. She just had to learn to relax and not let her family's pressure get to her. 

"Oh, and I almost forgot. Both Evan and Matt's brother Daniel are single if you wanna have a fling this weekend." I said raising my eyebrows, which caused us both to burst into laughter.

"Wait, Matt's brother's name is Daniel too?" Jenn asked. In the beginning it was kind of weird that me and Matt had brothers with the same name, but now it was old news. 

"Yea... but he's way hotter than my brother." 

"You have to say that." Jenn was starting to blush, and I knew my instincts were right. She is totally hooked on my brother. 

Daniel {my brother} is a very good looking guy. He's about 6 feet tall, with dirty blonde hair and piercing hazel eyes. He's two years older than me, and has been my number one protector since I was born. We've always been super close, and he has the biggest heart. He works for my dad's company as well, and will probably end up taking over one day. Come to think of it, Jenn and Daniel are very similar. Honestly, I think they would make the perfect couple.

"Jenn, do you wanna date my brother?"

02 July 2015

Too Good To Be True?

Saturday morning I woke up to banging on my bedroom door. I had the worst hangover, and this was not helping. I swear, as I get older it's getting harder and harder to drink all night.

"VICTORIA OPEN THIS DAMN DOOR RIGHT NOW!" I looked at the clock. 11:47am. Who the hell was at my bedroom door? I peeled myself out of bed and walked over to the door, only to see Sophia and Jenn standing there shoving coffee and greasy brown bag in my face.

"How did you guys get in my house?" I asked, confused.

"How about a thank you?!" Jenn rolled her eyes and pushed her way in. "The rest of your family is awake.. Daniel told us you were still in bed, so we came up and your door was locked. Since when do you lock your door?" Jenn asked. I'm pretty sure she has a huge thing for my brother, but that's a story for another day.

"Since no one lets me sleep in on the weekends. You're lucky I'm even dressed right now." I shot back and glared at them.

"Tor, its almost lunch time, it's not considered sleeping in anymore. And, you are not dressed. You're wearing the exact same thing you wore last night." Sophia said before Jenn added, "We called you a hundred times and you didn't answer, so we came to find you."

I didn't even know where my phone was. "Shit, I turned it off last night." 

"Are you going to talk to Matt?" Sophia asked me, softly. She quickly filled Jenn in on the situation while I searched for my purse from last night.

"I mean, I guess." I said, not convincing at all. I turned my phone on and was greeted with 17 missed calls and 42 text messages. "Seriously, guys?" I rolled my eyes at my two harrassers. 

"We were worried." Jenn said, as her and Sophia bust out laughing. 

There were 5 missed calls from Matt though, and 14 of the text messages were from him as well. He kept asking if I was okay, and if I got kidnapped. {Like I would answer him if I actually was kidnapped.} I sent him a quick text letting him know I was alive and well, that I had just woken up and would call him later. I put my phone to charge and sat on my bed inhaling the greasy breakfast my friends brought over. I don't know what it is, but that always cures my hangover. The greasier, the better.

"Tor, you know you're gonna have to talk to Matt in person right?" Jenn looked at my sympathetically. 

"Why is everyone acting like my dog just died? I'm a grown ass woman, I can handle this." I yelled back. "I only cried last night because Vodka makes me cry." 

"Okay, well go shower and we'll wait here for you. I'll help you do your hair." Sophia said cheerfully. Her mom was a hairstylist and she picked up some skill throughout her 26 years. 

"I don't really have a choice do I?" I asked. But before I could even finish the question both girls shot a NO my way. 

I groaned, mostly because I wasn't finished sleeping, and also for fear of dealing with Matthew. He's always been straight forward with me, so I know he wouldn't lie to me. But a part of me still feared the final explanation. I sent him another quick text asking him when he was free today, and that we needed to talk. 

"I'm home all day. You can come by whenever you want babe. :) Is everything okay?"

I didn't answer his text. Instead I jumped in the shower, got dressed in record time, and was out of the door on my way to Matt’s condo by 2pm. I was growing increasingly nervous and anxious {anxiety 101}, and I had to talk myself out of turning the car around more than once. I finally pulled up to the building and parked. I called up to Matt’s unit, and told him to buzz me in. When I got off of the elevator, he was waiting for me in the hallway.

“Victoria, what’s wrong?”

“You have never called me that. What’s wrong with you?” I asked, avoiding the obvious. I kissed Matt on the cheek and pushed passed him into the condo.

“I know something is up, and you’re not telling me, so what is it?” Matt always just jumps right in to the deep end.

We sat on his couch for a solid three and a half minutes. {I counted}. “Who’s Carmen?” I finally spat out.  

Matt’s face was so still and unemotional when he finally answered me. “She’s my ex-girlfriend. She lives in New York or some place now, I don’t know, and I don’t really care. Why are you asking me this?”

“Well, I met her last night, and she knew exactly who I was.”

“What do you mean? At the club? What did she say to you?” Matt asked frantically. I told him everything she said to me, and he let out a huge sigh. “Tori, you don’t believe anything she said right? You’re perfect for me, and you’re the one I want to be with. She’s just bitter and she’s taking it out on you. That woman will stop at nothing to ruin my life.”

“But, how does she even know who I am Matt?”

“She’s Evan’s sister. We dated for a really long time, but it was such a toxic relationship. It ended really bad, and I guess she’s not completely over it. I talk about you with Evan all the time. He must have said something to her.” Evan was Matt’s best friend from grade school. They grew up together, and he had mentioned that he dated Evan’s sister, but I had no idea it was Carmen.

“Oh. Are you over it?” I said quietly.

Matt got up and sat on the coffee table in front of me; he grabbed my hands and forced me to look him directly in the eyes. “Tor, I never want you to feel like you’re not good enough for me. It should be the other way around. Do you understand how amazing you are, and how lucky I am to have you in my life? You’re smart, beautiful, sexy as hell, you make me laugh, you make me want to wake up every day and be a better man. I would never do anything to jeopardize that.”

“I just keep thinking that maybe this is too good to be true. I’ve never had any man ever treat me the way you do, or even talk to me the way that you do.”

“Please stop doubting me, and us.” Matt pleaded. He looked so scared. He probably thought I was breaking up with him {which I obviously was not}.


“Okay?” He repeated.

“Yea, I mean, I’m not letting you out of my life that easy. You’re going to have to put up with my crazy ass for a little while longer.” I said and Matt smirked.

“Baby, I’ll put up with your crazy ass for the rest of my life.” Matt said. I totally ignored that comment though because any talk of the future scares the living shit out of me. So, instead I just pulled him down on top of me, and let my body do the talking. 
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